i have so much i want to write, to get out of my head. i just can't do it right now. maybe it's because i'm trying too hard or i think i have to write each post "perfectly" even though, clearly, i don't write perfect posts. you know what i mean?
anyway, i was just inspired, touched, and enlightened by jen lemen's blog, master real-person and one of the mondo beyond folk. go read her stuff. wow. talk about taking off the mask and just being. reading her post, the most recent one, made me seriously drop my shoulders, take a deep breath, soften my face. how often i try to "keep myself together" and "do the right thing." it can feel so rigid and lifeless. oh and i also "try not to be so deep" because i'm "too much" and very "self-indulgent." i'm not "giving" enough and blah blah blah. the race in the head that leaves out the heart.